time flies.
i'm leaving for PENANG on the third.
like OHHHH.. so suddenly!
but boy i'm glad (:
like rahahah!
and thirteen i'm flying to jakarta.
people don't miss me.rahah

i just got back from chalet at a beautiful noon.
wonderful it is in a small group.
you dont call it the class,
but the clique (:
caught the pretty sunrise and stayed awake.
like ohh finally drey didnt sleep like a pig!
with only four hours of sleep i survived the after day to town and mass.
rahahaha audrey rocks!
show you the beatiful creation we're all blessed with (:
courtesy of drey. (applause please)
the moving changes are just so astounding.
sometimes,
the one beside proves to be equally sweet.
LOVE

tmr's a long day of being a holy person.
argh!
i think i'd miss first day of chalet.
when it's the bbq night.
WELL DONE!
VERY WELL DONE.
went feesh house to make yummy jell-o.
zanged to jec and watched hot caucasian guys playing ice hockey(:
i think i want the referee's number TEEHEE!
played pool too.
hahah i'm legal and it's not exciting anymore.
i miss the times when i sneak in!
it's sad to be old.
really unenjoyable now.

UNRAVEL MY SECRETS.
love

HAHAHAHAHHA.
my gays are over down audi serving ((:
while i snack on hot piggy fats.
cool?
kindda

my whole week is going to be packed.
how cool is that?
and i intend to miss first day of chalett.
BOOHOO!
sorry kiddos.

i should have told you,
should have made it cear.
i'm sorry this song came too late!
shalom.

helloo boobs. you got me hawt in here!
you make me go HAHA.
and i realised how slizzing hot you're into me before you had darren.
so now that darren appeared.
bye drey.
no more kick-ass affairs.
goodbye.

ha
shalom

i was totally pigging out today!
and i hadn't had home food for days.
i think i'm getting sick of burgers and fast drinks.
say carl's jr, burger king, caramel coffee, ice cream.
not forgetting the bananas i had at pastamania and the many many fast food!
looks like it's time to. urm.. WORK OUT!
feesh must be laxing at home with her princess,
prone to much MIA soon.
i'm suffering from depression.
the fact that feesh is drooling over hotties and emo-ness
is driving me crazy.
when's my turn? hurhur
chalet's coming soon.
and i'm gonna be staring in my own video.
lol?
my darling feesh and stef and i swear were gonna be stuck together,
we're getting ready for a time of boredom and crucial social suicide.
chasing cars? very much thankew!

i'm fighting the nostalgic feeling.
thank you for catching the plane.
no thankew for being back.

SHALOM

whatever trip you call this,
it was tiring. love<3

tears of joy and pretty thrills.
i would have died without them.
try stary night climbing like that.
sweet(:
hello sweetest fresh sixteen!
i don't what other crazy things we'd do when we're legal.
everyone had a cup (:
a special treat with shots of thick black.
silly sean and larris had three.
retards! i'm lucky you don't call this beer.
thank you nessa christie.
on the tenth we'll be walking down the aisle in angelic costumes.
my pretty friends will be with me
thank you godma godpa mummy daddy.
thank you <3

I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But boy you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

relvery and rejoicing (:
love

i have larris, keith, jeremy and manda over at my house now.
it's a freaking two thirty in the morn and they're not sleeping.
my eyes are tired but i promised not to sleep like every other time!
Grins.
i so love their company.
they're watching silly show which they don't understand.
silly.
very silly.
somehow i wished everything would be still and firm for as long as i go white (:
people,
i wanna grow old with you guys.vivo's top is really pretty.
unfortunately we didn't stay long there.
very pretty.
too breath-taking (:
i will upload photos soon!

and feesh and stefff.
i forgot photos with you guys.
argh but don't worry i won't be missing!
more outings to go!hurhur

sometimes i wake up crying at night.
sometimes i scream out your name.
for so long you were mine..

shalom

tmr's my onetime gayfriend's birthday!
ohmy!
i wish you'd be more man on your 16th!
(:

drey.
it's catastrophe.
very much.

yesterday's COF2 started off in a frightening way.
but eventually everything was a sweet little note to one another!
(: i enjoyed every single celebration of friends!
like doodles and waddles.
thank you for inviting! love!
i got home with a red burnt and a very much painful face!
but i had my fun at east coast!
she doesn't leave me(:

scott's eyes got everybody fascinated! like TOTALLY!

pretty 20th's coming(:
candlelight dinner with girlfriends
and lunch with birthday boy and gay and panda.
talk about photos and shopping bags.
and more photos!
new york's waiting feesh!
our new york's coming!

love.
very much love.
the ghost of you and me.

yes..
YES!
it's almost over.
it's so gonna be over (:

almost there(:

so just a few days back i thought i entered asylum.
eight hours of sleep seemed foreign,
and those collectable ph0tos are depleting.
i started to miss people.
and i got emo and very emo.
i'm marking the end of it now.
period.

so i'm gonna fly off with mummy and dadday.
brother has got school, poor guy can't go.
and yes i'll bear in mind the gifts.
don't worry pretties!

HAPPY BELATED NESSA!
came in late but yes you're old now.
be a mummy to me! hha
i wanted to post a photo of you but i'm using a different com.
AHH

i'm officially back on licensed blogging,
with more photos to come.
and a new blog skin soon (:

note to you:
you're missed!
love.

it's something i wish i had,
to change my destiny.
those footprints,
i so wanna erase.
tell me i didn't exist!
so it's one anxiety after another.
they say to leave it to the hands of GOD.
but i really sucked at my interview..
so if i don't get comfirmed i'd probably have them as my pillars ((:
i'm so glad they're with me!
sometimes talking to ant does help me alot!
thank GOD for them! clairr claire

thank you sweestest laurie for getting me a gift(:
seeing you back just makes me smile!
my big stster!
ahha!

love<3>

it seems just yesterday when i started mugging.
those heavy dark bags were tragedy.
silly as it can be, i think last minute mugging fits me good.
so much for studying long before, cold feet and anxiety hit me as a paper lay before my very eyes.
suddenly,
the mind's a blank, the worlds a twirl.
feels like yesterday, i was smiling at my prelims results.
now,
everythings gonna end.
they say you'll do better for o's.
i beg to differ,
my bad proves the obvious.
i guess i'd play like hell right after,
but looking forward to results,
could kill my heart for good!
in a week's time ((:
i guess i'm gonna hit korean dramas series soon,
i don't really have to worry for there's english subtitles.
and manda's gonna provide loads of ti-e-ssues
and help me wipe those drools from the very much hotties!

it's gonna be an enormous treat on twentieth
with shopping spree with girlfriend and gay friends.
and a sweet candle light dinner with my feesh,stef,daz and hopefully jans.
so mummy!
i won't be home! ((:

why there so much to put in when you're so far away.
i don't say it died. i never did.
so when you're back it makes no difference,
because i'm long forgotten,
no i erased it..

DREY KILLED THE RED RED ROSE!

nothing like this beats the tragedy of losing someone yet to come to earth.
the bubbling smile of having it in her was obvious.
one more month and a new life would have come.
the anticipation was cut abruptly.
the adrenaline rush, anxiety for my exams is incomparable to this devastating feeling.
it's hard, we all know how hard!
i guess she has to cry,
cry to relieve the pain that is so much more than physical.
she has to grieve and for how long? nobody knows.
all i can do now, though very helpless,
is to pray for another gift showered upon the poor couple soon.
like that of a couple's dreams being dashed,
could be restored with more love and bliss.

it's all beyond our faults.

maths and ss was ok.
chem killed me very much.
i guess i'll have to do better for physics huh?
i'm enduring.
sorry fads, had stuffs to blog about! (:

turning back time,
would be the best gift to give.
LOVE

i found a deepest motivation to endure this obstacle.
you call it shopping.
i'm going to jakarta at the end of the year with fly.
they have huge shopping centres, pint balls and wake boarding.
hopefully manda and keith comes too (:
and not forgetting hongkong with manda and fly.
think shopping and clothes!
i guess i can save those hard earn money for christmas,
and spend mummy's money during those trips to get good bargins!
darling friends won't lose out for i'd get pretty clothes for you people too!

guess this is a material antidote to my anxiety....

there's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
LOVES

nobody told me it was going to be this hard.
and all i can do now is hope and pray
i guess prom's gonna be a ding dong thing.
people are thinking that it's gonna be lousy.
but hello people?
who cares about the place and how romantic it's gonna be?
who cares about the dress, the prom pretties or a date?
it's the people darlings!
all i want is to rekindle,
with the ones who tell you hi but never return a bye.

And so we talked all night bout the rest of our lives
where we'll gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
keep on thinking things will be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
these memories are playing like a film without sound

for them i shall speak,
things will always be the same.
they're still be crazy as can be,
only different paths,
different dreams.
but those tiny hands i will,
GRAB FOR ETERNITY!
i knew i love you before i met you
i think i dreamt you into life
LOVES <3

it's seems never-ending.
almost inevitable.
and so those little memories poured on last night.
i dreamt of silly and ass!
and as silly as an ass was how i felt then after.
teehee

i missed it because i came back from studies late,
so i pray for late grandpa to be in wonderful heaven (:
and to THE AWESOME MING BRIGES.
i'm sorry i had to miss butter factory.
anyhow, happy fourteen and the many ding dongs!

20nov, 20nov.
pretty feesh stef manda sean larris keith
and whoever whoever,
wait for me (:

haven't i always loved you
LOVES

it seems so near
yet feels like a million miles away
it's not cliched,
it's all so true.
the over-whealming concern suddenly feels very appreciated.
it's only two more weeks and everything will be over.

pray
LOVES<3