Maybe surrounded by
A million people
I still feel all alone
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside

i'm getting more and more worried as the day come closer.
my running nose. and i literally meant RUNNING nose is not making things better.
and i realised i forgot if i even put in my best BEST.

love <3

stef's going to be seventeen soon(:
i hope she's free from work to celebrate.
i missed the chance to meet daz but talking to her online that day was coolshit.
cos she's hard to meet. hah
they say no matter the distance the friendship stays,
because friendship is the greastest gift...

from GOD <3

headache, flu and a very uneasy sleep in the evening.

fullstop.

it's remarkable how i take it down each time.
it's consoling how i make myself smile about it.
somehow it became a routine.
blames and blames.
so maybe the path i choose is plainly for the sake of you.

lunch today at macs was considered a GS huh?
keith was all emo about losing his phone,
but got excited over the topic we were all fussing about.
and manda was on a crucial diet eating nuggets while we all opt for burgers.
and dumb keith does binomial without bringing a calculator. (who does amath without one?)
larris made his own solutions to circular measure.
i guess you guys should just hire me to tutor you (: heh

tell me.
LOVES <3

yesterday was mr kito de silva's birthday.

he promised me he won't be gay anymore.
manda please be happy (:
i don't remember the swimming times we had together when we were young,
but i remember you were chubby and blur than.
what took the change? must be the seventeen.
took a cab to mr kito's home right after youth rally.
(did i mention youth rally was not as fun as i thought it would have been?p&w was nice though)
camwhore at his jamming room.
coolshit.i think i should spend v day with manda.
cos she gossips and i have a desktop of photos with her.
is amanda lim peishan agreeable on this? heh GRINS

sighs,
i guess it's hard to keep putting on a front. i know someday it'll go.
i keep guessing how my life would be like w/o them.
but i realise i still have manda girlfriend.
all that gays that made me listen and make me depressed over their probs.(drama only)
but i guess i travelled with them
and i'm so glad to see ant smiling more,
larris saying he'll try,
i picture myself in my twenties,
hanging out with the clique.
having the same old pictures and cool lunch.
larris and keith arguing over small gay stuffs.
manda rolling her eyes at me for fun.
chatting to lexine over lunch.
and having the same old bonding sessions with des and ant.
feesh and stef getting all mature and taking even more photos (:
my beloved bernard should get married by than.
teenage kick backs,
memories like cement paw prints on walkways.

movie wed with laurie laurie laurie. <3>
no red wedge,
no red bag,
no pony shoes
and no new crumpler. YET
bummer bummer.

if only she knew than we'd prob be spared the blame.
LOVES <3

i haven't bought my
red wedge red bag and pony shoes
and puma bag.
bummer.

they say when your face's too close to the cam you need photoshop.
somehow, keith seriously needs it.

terribly!

i guess helping them work on their relationship makes me feel good (:
don't give up now dear ones.

loves <3

my eyes didn't leave the moon.
it kept going and going.

it started running away.
running away.
running away.....

from me.

sometimes goodbye though it hurts
is the only way to destiny.
goodbye GODPA.
and GODMA you'll be fine i hope.
i'd be your pillar whenever you'll need one.
cos i know somehow it's not going to be easy for you.

so fast,
a day has past,
and i feel all alone.

LOVES <3

look short and clumsy in huge shoes. ha funny!

mass and town with ant was funny yo!
he has no sense of direction.
and i realised all those young schooling ones who met me after sch are smelly.
do i smell like that too when i schooled? heh
manda panda is sucha poo, she doesn't give me onions and she stinks.
and keith's sense of humour is super high nowadays and he stinks.
so does des larris and manuel. stinks stinks! heh
tsk yo tsk!
i love my girlfriends la.
and their miniature obsession and lesbian tactics.
fish even two-timed darren! wah (: re-ment craze.
remember to meet for lunch no matter where we go?
like orange lantern, jap outlet, lau pasat, yew tee. wah wah wah.
anyway i think i wanna go jc. hahaahah
(: wear sch u and study everyday and pay STUDENT FARE <3 (major highlight please)

i am going to miss godpa.
those magic changes. (:
you've been my guide, thank you for you!

<3

sunday,
i was dancing in the rain,
singing just so you know,
makings my feelings known..
to the rain (:
HOW ROMANTIC!
and those indian troops kicked the ass outta servers.
rough people. tsk tsk.

wah audrey has something better than photoshop hurhur?

my girlfriends are looking hot here.
wah audrey take damn nice photos huh?

wah i don't know what's happening but the word WAH seems to fit in perfectly.
heh i think i widened my vocab vigorously.
i just added ''wah'' into it.
coolshit!

loves <3

the rash is of unspeakable redness,
painful and itchy like a thousand mosquitoes have caught me by surprise.
awful and unsightly.
had better heal soon.
been like years since i had this terrible.
damn

tea time with amanda jeremy des and ant almost caused another umbrella to be misplaced.
terrible.
oh well ant thinks my bday gift isn't kiddy.
heh makes me feel young decorating like a primary sch kid yo!

wore the damn uniform and went desperately for the sake of money to concord.
only got the bursary at eight thirty.
smashing annoying with the heat and i don't know what's going on situation.
the speech MUST HAVE been long.
i see parents urging their kids to take silly photos with the mp and posters.
what a sight!
thank GOD brother and keith was there with me.
could have died.
seriously!
many more framed ones and they're complete.
sheesh

hearts. <3

sheryl's eighteen and rightfully legal.
anthony's seventeen and almost legal.
(:

just as i'm feeling like i'm living someone else's life,
how i stepped outside feeling all alone,
someone told me not to worry,
that i'd prob be laughing my way and warming up to my new environment.
he's simple abrupt exclaim makes me touch up in tears.
''anyone who warms up to you would be as fortunate as i am.''
i didn't think i'd believe it.
but i made myself reply a thank you. (i think i truly mean it <3)>

cold as the ice beneath me freeze
i felt the cold touch of what seemes to be wind.
i sat alone like a unwanted child.
the wind seems to sing to me.
i found comfort in the cold.
than suddenly everything warm comes back.
i found my life again.

love.

dreyjclaire

i had the coolest lunch with my girlfriends ever!!
the jap foodoutlet's run by a cranky man.
so lunch was weirdly quiet and strictly no nonsense.
any request requires second thoughts. (you don't want to annoy him do you?)
oh well the good food and large portion of salmon could pay for the unruly well-behaved lunch.
no laughters or cheeky spells.
heh could have died yo.

oh where oh where have my red hot wedge pumps went?

at 16 i truly realised how expensive it is to live in singapore.
so i guess at 20 i'd be bankrupt huh?
ridiculously OUTRAGEOUS!
so i guess i opt to wear my uniform for a WILD two more years.
more books please? heh

where would i go?
i can only hope.
love <3

i'm finally back feeling totally fat.
but who cares cos i wouldn't want to look like that.
women, the guy should love you for who you are. that is the real HOT!
maybe sushi isn't really my thing cos i was full too fast.
oh well des, eugene and raymond had me laughing at their comical ways! hah
and ant, that raw salmon isn't really nice.
made my brother fast walk back home with me.
(cos mummy says if i'm not home by ten i can forget about tmr)

thankew shan for being such a gift.
for making me get over my confusion and frustration.
for letting me think i'm normal.
for letting me plan my path and for being by my side.
thankew love <3>

friendship's as colourful as these.
beautiful too.
remove?
nah!
pique and spilt. hoho

tmr's my pretty date with my two girlfriends and hopefully it'll be four huh?
can't wait now.
secret recipe or whatever whatever i wouldn't mind.
sounds like plan. too much and soo sweet!

you step up, i step up.
love<3

it's time to run a post of madness.
i'm pretty sure you've seen this before.
but heh i love this picture too much.
and i stole a picture fron janice.
my currently missing in action girlfriend.
did i not mention she laughs at my jokes?
LIKE WHO LAUGHS AT MY JOKES!!
that's why i love her. POOPOO!!
so today was all oldies and weird dancing.
ohh i didnt know my mummy dance like that!
HOHO.
the love keeps me going.
the beer makes me mad.
VERY GOOD.
(:

can't wait for monday now!<3
i'm going out with my girlfriends you gays!

just as i was about to prepare myself for a tiring jog around my town,
the stupid rain came and made me lazy all over again.
it's enough that i wake in the afternoon everyday!
time for some exercise pig.

i SHOULD be complaining like mad now.
cos i have to collect my bursary money at concord pri next fri,
when my other two darlings are receiving at kranji.
i have alot to grumble about,
but the money awaiting me somehow shoo-ed the fact that i'd be going alone!
argh so much for receiving with feesh and steff...
pretty dongs. grr

Hear me when I said
When I said I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly

this should remind you of eragon's hot hot body.
teeehee(:
keith you better start working out huh?

i guess it isn't easy thinking about what's in for me.
the new people and environment is such a spoiler.
so while everybody's getting a feel of what its like,
i prefer to back out.

so everybody's for rich.
the guy's are for hot.
the girl's are for popularity.
somehow friendship runs through these.

maybe i'll find my pretty one there.
<3

my wonderful 2006

so 2007's gonna be a very hectic one soon.
results arrives soon and i can only hope and hope for the best i guess?
so many things to worry about i see why 07 makes no excitement.
don't know whcih paths to take.
but i'll leave it in HIS hands.
i guess it's the work and church and own commitments to worry about.
but i pray hard that these beautiful friendship will last for eternity
i've been praying hard that the bands don't break.
happy new 07
loves <3