I COULD GET USED TO IT

you've no idea how much secrets i've been keeping,
from everyone far and close.
you've no idea really.
and when you feel like sharing and its exploding in you,
you remembered you cross your heart, and yes hope to die.

guess i had it crashed cos i don't quite believe in what i wrote anymore =/ and just yesterday i walked out of school with my head up and mighty, ogling the stars.
i mananged to count ten but derrick thinks i'm retarded cos he couldn't see any.
awww you've no idea how pretty it is and it made my awful, sunken, miserable, dark and cold day bright.
cheeesee friesss(: and i played with the cute kitten that got me ohhhing and ahhhing. it's called faiz? faziz? faris? i have my own galaxy at night right in my comfort zone with notes from me to you <3
you are just like a stranger and when it comes to shooting stars i've seen a few, but i've never seen anything as beautiful as you <3

wake very morning and thank God for you. silly, yes, but aren't we all silly cos our hearts don't lie. they lie they do but they break like hell

mug hard dear ones, mug hard. love

ONLY HEAVEN KNOWS

you can feel it but not see it
like the wind, i'd love you.
like a walk to remember, make your list <3
when someone leaves it makes you upset,
you're motivated,
but somehow, the buts and hows kindda killed me.
dear you, please, take my anxieties away.
so i studied overnight last night at wcp.
i did four sheets of math (that is good right?), all of which had question to kill me:(
home wouldn't produce such results!
all in all was a lovely night, cold wind, some stars, mocha and an pencil genious at hand, drawing. and what is i lost some of my chem notes and he lost a friendship band. bummer
I NEED TO REWRITE MY OWN HANDWRITTEN PERFECT NOTES:(
grumbles, but worms got me laughing. gees loves my hand really(:
promos, they're seven days away:(( maybe my words were all lies.
night beautiful.

WALK DOWN THE YELLOW BRICK ROAD

till i find the answer my heart wants

just last saturday i slept at a whooping three... doing absolutely nothing.
i had my notes right infront of me and the player blasting VERY loudly.

but my mind wasn't quite present and god knows why didnt i decide to go online and have a productive conversation with people who'd could at the right time for now, finally, fill me with something to laugh or sane about.

so all the while i was stoning and lost and down for no rythm or reason and probably wondering where my dumb phone went to;

under the blanks, maybe(again).

and when i finally found it, it was a disappointment.

took random pictures of any tiny thing in my room and they all look significant, forsakened but nicely found.

and than i realised maybe i need the lens, to help me find answers my heart yearns for.

the missing piece that till now, with all the people around me i've no idea who,what,where.

so i fed myself with whatever i can find in the room, and yes i eat alot and i'm always hungry.

right now, i'm frustrated and the hunger gets me wild and i crave for prata and shashimi.

not really prata but shashimi. yes i want shashimi pretty please?

somemore late pictures of the week.

and maybe you'd hear from me after three sweet weeks of no social life and misery.

i promise i won't,

you're right but not right cos my heart lies.

THE JEWELER'S SHOP

I am afraid of love. Am i really afraid of love?What pervades me now is the feeling of love. Yes i see love in your eyes, But i feel fear, fear that's in the future.One ring without the other has no value.

One love cannot be divided into two.Am i ready for love?urm what is love again?so when my hands touched his face, i felt the tinge of peace. so that is love?maybe.you don't know what you got yourself into. i am selfish, full of confidence, full of nonsense and i have no direction. i give sparingly and i think of myself. i fear, i fear, i fear.what you don't know is that the difference brings us closer.leave it in HIS hands,

you'll know <3>
and no i'm not in love. maybe but no.

tell me again what is it i'm after?
the paths, they're taking me down.

THOUGHTS ARE TRUE

i just had my bath cos i got home real late.
i have to study tmr but i doubt i'd wake. (okay i will)
i have loads of pictures to upload but i'm lazy,
and well done, my blog's being updated on conservative days alr(: (wow!)

back to oldschool today was nice.
the food, the laughter and the atmosphere.

damn i'm really tired,
night world,
night to the sky tonight,
with stars that had my mind floating <3

i feel damn bloody drowsy cos i woke at two and i'm suppose to be at kap studying.
bummer.
i found pleasure in painting my nails black, unfortunatly the right hands empty if you know why
and i may have to remove it when i go to school on one of those days.
and i'm feeling rather fly i wanna go downstairs and run a mile.
feeels good to be able to update almost everyday, but no shit, i have to study.

little words to say that is now,
bring us back, bring the feeling all back pretty please?

THEY WERE FROM MY HEART

the previous post is nothing trust me, it's just that i can write well and i made so many believe.
chuckles.
what's sad when i choose to always hold a smile?
even if i am don't bother asking, i only share joy(:
sometimes i'll do silly things, wish upon a star and ask for everything back.
i'll play the guitar to really emo songs,
i blog and leave codes all around,
i sleep till the dreams drive me crazy.
and i guess i'm a super sucker, i wanna know everything, but i won't tell mine.
well, its for me to know and you to find out,
fullstop!
and i love hockey mates anddd s09 please.

ERIC'S SWEET SEVENTEEN ON MONDAY AT BOTOK JONES
food's awesome , nice company and yes my girlfriend's seventeen(:
and yes happy birthday to jude my dear friend who never fails to catch up with me once in awhile.
for being such a nice friend since primary school and for constantly being an encourager.
i still remember the lovely huge card you gave me last year and confessing that you don't usually write but did it just for me.
those words made me laugh to myself i swear, you're sucha nice kid and i'm so glad you're doing well now.
and to farni you babe!
i'm so sorry i totally didn't get you anything and i do feel bad:(
but all in all i wanna thankew for being sucha a nice friend during those early days and even though we're not as close as before,
i stil love you girl!

bloody pimple!:(

DREY CAN COOKyes i can as long as its ready made(:
i can cook for you but you've gotta audition for a space in my heart!
hahahaahha

PRATA!
i finally fed my crave ! like since last week?like how a friend told me, it should be new discoveries each day,
and you'll know its love.

sept hols shall be mugging days,
all hail the macs and libraries and god knows where i'd find to study.
may teardrops on my guitar drive me hard and going.
love