THEY WERE FROM MY HEART

the previous post is nothing trust me, it's just that i can write well and i made so many believe.
chuckles.
what's sad when i choose to always hold a smile?
even if i am don't bother asking, i only share joy(:
sometimes i'll do silly things, wish upon a star and ask for everything back.
i'll play the guitar to really emo songs,
i blog and leave codes all around,
i sleep till the dreams drive me crazy.
and i guess i'm a super sucker, i wanna know everything, but i won't tell mine.
well, its for me to know and you to find out,
fullstop!
and i love hockey mates anddd s09 please.

ERIC'S SWEET SEVENTEEN ON MONDAY AT BOTOK JONES
food's awesome , nice company and yes my girlfriend's seventeen(:
and yes happy birthday to jude my dear friend who never fails to catch up with me once in awhile.
for being such a nice friend since primary school and for constantly being an encourager.
i still remember the lovely huge card you gave me last year and confessing that you don't usually write but did it just for me.
those words made me laugh to myself i swear, you're sucha nice kid and i'm so glad you're doing well now.
and to farni you babe!
i'm so sorry i totally didn't get you anything and i do feel bad:(
but all in all i wanna thankew for being sucha a nice friend during those early days and even though we're not as close as before,
i stil love you girl!

bloody pimple!:(

DREY CAN COOKyes i can as long as its ready made(:
i can cook for you but you've gotta audition for a space in my heart!
hahahaahha

PRATA!
i finally fed my crave ! like since last week?like how a friend told me, it should be new discoveries each day,
and you'll know its love.

sept hols shall be mugging days,
all hail the macs and libraries and god knows where i'd find to study.
may teardrops on my guitar drive me hard and going.
love

FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND

and she thought she loved the rain,
there in the bus,
the beautiful music blasting in her ears.
her thoughts were many like a film in black and white.
two strangers board the bus,
the guy had those familiar eyes that she once stared into.
his lips were those that calmed her down and once told her sweet things that made her smile.
the girl beside him must be lucky,
and all she wished for was for that girl to give him all the love she could before.
deep inside it cringed, and it probably had her eyes stung for awhile.
she got down the next stop, wanting to relieve something that made a scar.
there in the rain, her perfect white top seemed so frail and transparent like her heart.
with big large steps, she ran the rest of the way home,
with rainwater, or were they tears? that stained her little cheeks.
and i bet she forgot, but she played this story so many times,
it was once upon a time.
-drey

what is today being so upsetting i could even come up with something like this?
and my friendster's being retarded and for god's sake don't even think i watch those shit.
and i swear i'm not emo just tired, of everything.
i guess talking to mas just got me thinking again,
the things i want, the things i do, the friends, the guys that come and go.
wth do you actually want drey?
sheesh i'm disgusted by myself, and i should start studying.

he says he finally got it right,
that girl he talks about,
i'll bet she's beautiful.

I DIED JUST A LITTLE

the words, they don't mean anything for now.i have EIGHT bloody articles to complete(8's my number damn it),
some retarded reflections to hike up,
three irritating math tutorials to complete,
one scary alcohol to face,
two tests to mug for.
the words can easily vocab to more unruly ones but i prefer to be nice, for now.

i have to plan to mug outside with someone cos home isn't good.
i use the com, i watch tteeeveee and i eat and sleep and sleep, yes sleep.
okay i have to work on those bullshits,
prob only at five thirty that i'm switching on my social life!
great, let me come home real late tonight!(:

everything i do reminds me of you. shit

fake a smile so he won't see.....

DID SOMEONE ELSE TAKE MY PLACE?

promos are so near and the adrenaline is killing.
i pee and eat with it all the time.
pray i don't drop dead someday.

and i've been labelled crazy, insane, nuts, psycho, weird, loud.....anything you wanna put in i'd be glad to.
i can even give you examples.
like how i did something stupid today.
tell me which girl does silly things to embarrass herself with people,
not forgetting the guys, probably laughing at me, their butt of joke.
but i guess i can't help it, i'm silly and i indulge in weird habits(:

1. i eat the patty and the bread separately when it comes to burgers.
2. i love eating milo powder, on its own
   
3. i love taking my shoes off for no practical reason. (very unglam i know)
   
4. i tell people i fart when i do. (it's only polite no?:p)
   
5. i burb loudly even if it means there are guys around.
   
6. i drool, like wth, i droool(:
7. i laugh really really loudly and very unglam
8. my mouth's pretty large, you know what i mean
   

this is just a tiny view, i have many inside secrets:p (8's my number)
if you can tolerate this, it doesn't mean anything.
if you can't, i don't really care.
and i know i have anonymous people reading my blog,
GREAT! that's double promotion of my unglam side. kudos

i love the girls in S09 i found a motivation to study hard.
and to have a bird's eye view of cute one. hahahaha
CAN'T WAIT FOR MONDAY OKAY,
BOTAK JONES IS WAITING FOR ME TO FEAST ON THEIR FOOD AND ADD A PLUS ONE TO ERIC'S AGE.

the fraud of a dream guy that is,
when i took a turn.

STAINED CHEEKS

i have no rythm or reason for feeling low,

but i am now and god knows why :/ like when you feel the distance but you tell yourself you're almost there.

self denial or factual ego? doesn't quite matter they're all the same.

this was just last year when i had the time to do such things. pity.

dinner just now was good and i got home and slept from a whopping seven to nine.

i'm done with gp research and i should go off now.

night world, tmr will be a better day(:, i hope.

KEEP FOLDING YOU LIKE PAPER HEARTS

i get over and sorted out with.and so i walked under the rain and i told myself i'd get over it,
for my lovely pillars in s09,
for my beautiful hockey mates,
for my listening ears(you know who you guys are),
for myself and myself, work hard!chienhui wrote me a lovely note that was totally hilarious and very anyhow okay.
the pride part's true though(: not the rest. ha
and if you're wondering what's with the chinese words, apparently i didn't know what they meant until mock chi.
that teacher kept going suuujinnngg! and i'm like wth is that.
in case you don't know, check the dict.
i am deprived socially, esp at night.
guess college does what it made to be and somehow, i chose this silly path.
so dear audrey stop thinking about np and stop procrastinating aye?
tough road indeed.
and i miss times with manda and how town was coolshit and how we took eons to find a lunch outlet.
cam whore, giggled at silly thinks, comment on guys we seee, bought many clothes and did the silliest things ever.
what about feesh and stef? i still want the late suppers at beauty world, the night sprees in town and stayovers.
it's coming back soon right? yes it's coming back.

Then my heart did time in Siberia and if it hurts, i'll keep folding you like paper hearts

JEALOUSY

comes once in awhile.i didn't even know deb took this. bet she has a crush on me.i had a great time with yueli at hollandv
food and cold chocolate and our sinful indulgence.
mug hard girl, and we just found a perfect place to study!

long bus rides get you thinking and when it almost reaches to the emo storyline,
the stupid music goes loud. great!

SINKS LIKE PAPER BOATS ON WATER

when i choose not to believe what others have to say,
that's my kind of love.
you'd use your heart to feel and those eyes to read.
will it even hurt, given a try?

c g am em f c dm g,
that's when i love you <3

econs tmr, physics thurs, trng thurs,
and tgif, i'd be going home earlier and prob visit town(: i want that sexy pencil box from borders.
turns the misery on a sweeter note.
love.

HOW CAN THE WORLD BE PRETTY?

when the pretty stuffs die on you?
when there are things to be worried and sad about?
when you don't know what you want?
when you get emo and you don't know why?
when you look at stuffs that brings memories?
how can the world not be pretty?

i only recalled today that i lost my ring two weeks back.
i wanted to wear it today and i searched stupidly for it.
i dont feel lost without it but it deserves some significance doesn't it?
sucha bummer feeling. buy one cheapo one to replace it audrey.

i have something randon to rant about!
who invented the fact that you have to change your clothes everyday?
can't you just have two nice pairs of tops and wear them on alternate days?
maybe if it wasn't so loserish i'd do just that(:
maybe it'd save me the time i spend infront of my wardrobe thinking of something nice to wear when everything looks okay and bad at the same time.
yet another bummer.today's a pretty lazy day and i got loads of work to do.
i have a problem with judging my chem teacher's mood evenwhen i'm trying to love chem. notcool.
what an irritating post can, everything is so bummer bum bum. ha
ciao.

how much do kisses work?

yes i'm finally homesweethome.
there are more pictures but i'm lazy to post so wait for my next update which could be eons l8r!you can imagine the luxury i was in the whole time(:
the toilet's not the best i've seen but still when i upload the pictures you can see why i shit so well. haand yes the last time i touched the guitar i got scratched by a bat. not cool.
this time i played with no mishaps.

moment of scandal with FILA(: cuter than that dog with my initials! hur!:P
more pictures when i feel like it.would you love me for who i am?would you?there were loads of thoughts even as i ate, slept and lazed in that jacuzzi.
i dont want to leave the class, my everything nice now.
i have to work hard, i swear i would.maybe i don't realise but you're somewhat entering my life.

when fate abides.
it doesnt exist.

BACK TO OLDSCHOOL

CHEERIOS TO UNGLAM MOMENTS

BACK TO SCHOOL WAS MORE OF AN IJ REUNION. HA
it was a night well-spent i had so fun fun dancing like an idiot,
i was totally fly high i even wore my ten year old cousin's shoes they were so small and cute.
(okay my leg's small and cute period)
i gave him up cos he was too short. hahahahaha
totally cute unlike that stinky brother of his.
larris liew,
i'm gladd we're almost back to normal despite the ups and downs and dear you has finally moved on and i feel good that you have cos i am sucha horrible creature throughout the whole time you know what i mean and thanks fr being sucha great friend by reading my msges and assuming things thankew you mr girlfriend and we ought to CHOMP x2 FULLSTOP
you gave me more enemies but whatever it is,
I WILL NEVER GO OUT WITH MR DESILVA ALONE COS HE IS SO BORING. (please forgive me yet again when you read this ha)
thanks for always being on my side you busy mugger!
what happened to CHOMPx2 and hurrying me and blaming me?

i have more pictures with everyone else.
who knew parties in school uniforms are so fun?
fly high.

KEEPING MEMORIES

it just came to my mind suddenly,and yes i'm packing my bag now for tmr's trip.
and like what derrick says its a test of my own heart.
silly him, makes it sound like i'm going forever.
but it sucks to know you'd be without your phone, your only form of survival lately.
sheesh!
and pretty,
happy seventeen not eighteen i'll remember that(:
happy eighteen pris on the ninth!

off for a wild night tonight and yes an early journey all the way to austin hills.
god knows what time i'd be home tonight and tmr's an early day out out town so i'm blogging now to say bye,
to the girlfriends, boyfriends, the stars and maybe the cute dog across my area(:

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly

yours <3

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU...

maybe i do.it was a long awaited reunion and i enjoyed myself with the small talks and bimbotic god knows what and yesss love you pris,
you're 18 on the ninth and you can so celebrate it with singapore <3>more pictures with ness lex and paul. i need them pretty please cos my cam has this pathetic few.

these days haven't been good.
many unfortunates in my classmates' life and practically on conservative weeks and days there had been people crying, have cried and is prob about to.
i have a small tiny little motivation each day and i wonder why do i even break down.
to weimun, be strong you're the sweetest one you know it.
deb love you're not okay i know but things will come smooth.lovely dinner with wm,ch,deb
the world evolves round candies and sometimes i wish i dont ever finish them.
sometimes i know too much it hurts like hell and mrderrick,
i'm pondering on your words and why can't there be stars tonight.

just watch me play the guitar, that's when i love you,
no matter why <3

NO STARS TONIGHT LIKE EVERY OTHER HEART.

i was almost there but i guess i broke my own heart silly.
it's a pretty song, enjoy the lyrics(:

was i invading in on your secrets
was i too close for comfort
you're pushing me out
when i'm wanting in
what was i just about to discover
when i got too close for comfort
driving you home
guess i'll never know

remember when we scratched our names into the sand
and told me you loved me
but now that i find
that you've changed your mind
i'm lost the words
and everything i feel for you
i wrote down on one piece of paper
the one in your hand
you won't understand
how much it hurts to let you go

how much can i expect from something i backed out from?
you never felt like this before audrey, never.

that's love i guess?
it just died so easily right beside me and it left me a scratch.
it didn't feel good inside, not at all