GOTTA GO MY OWN WAY

do you believe in love at first sight?
it'll be as beautiful as you(:

saturday isn't all that beautiful right?

it's okay cos we've got no memories and we should go our own ways.

i've got to move on from where i dropped.

you're old picture to burn.

new ones have to come in drey, new ones.

till than i have notes to rewrite:(

damn its SINFUL, how i procrastinate.

just yesterday after i left the com at one ;(i wasn't really at the com as usual but i had to turn it off to make me feel better),

i told the dumb me to wake at nine and start making sunday, urm fruitful.

yet here at twelve i did less than an hour of work and here i am. whining.

not cool really, not cool when you're all anxious and uptight but your body seem to not respond.

plus, i can so cut my heart into two and tell you it hurts, from everything that i kept in the safe.

its old news yet the older it is the more you remember no?

on a pretty note yesterday's dinner was nice(: all dutch and i had my raw share of fish which could take the place of sashimi.

still, i love catching almost empty trains and walk the very late night home,

your mind's empty and everything feels good looking the stars home.

and the only thing i have to remember is to msg desmond and anthony when i'm home safe.

unfortunately, i'm always home safe and sound and i always forget to msg whoever everytime.

mauybe i should plan my own spree of nonsense and prob escape from this safe world.

note to self: i miss you terribly

mood's running up and down.

silly how i crave for something suddenly, feel like going somewhere someone, feel like replying.

than again there are times i dont feel like anything above and the silly reasons i give can so foad.

''my phone's in my room'' can so die off.

and seriously chem's killing me you her him.

but like yk said, we've gotta move up tgt. no giving up, not till i die.

what's exams? argh. ballistic that is.

HOW CAN THE WORLD BE PRETTY?

when the pretty stuffs die on you?
when there are things to be worried and sad about?
when you don't know what you want?
when you get emo and you don't know why?
when you look at stuffs that brings memories?
how can the world not be pretty?

i only recalled today that i lost my ring two weeks back.
i wanted to wear it today and i searched stupidly for it.
i dont feel lost without it but it deserves some significance doesn't it?
sucha bummer feeling. buy one cheapo one to replace it audrey.

i have something randon to rant about!
who invented the fact that you have to change your clothes everyday?
can't you just have two nice pairs of tops and wear them on alternate days?
maybe if it wasn't so loserish i'd do just that(:
maybe it'd save me the time i spend infront of my wardrobe thinking of something nice to wear when everything looks okay and bad at the same time.
yet another bummer.today's a pretty lazy day and i got loads of work to do.
i have a problem with judging my chem teacher's mood evenwhen i'm trying to love chem. notcool.
what an irritating post can, everything is so bummer bum bum. ha
ciao.

THAT'S WHEN I LOVE YOU...

maybe i do.it was a long awaited reunion and i enjoyed myself with the small talks and bimbotic god knows what and yesss love you pris,
you're 18 on the ninth and you can so celebrate it with singapore <3>more pictures with ness lex and paul. i need them pretty please cos my cam has this pathetic few.

these days haven't been good.
many unfortunates in my classmates' life and practically on conservative weeks and days there had been people crying, have cried and is prob about to.
i have a small tiny little motivation each day and i wonder why do i even break down.
to weimun, be strong you're the sweetest one you know it.
deb love you're not okay i know but things will come smooth.lovely dinner with wm,ch,deb
the world evolves round candies and sometimes i wish i dont ever finish them.
sometimes i know too much it hurts like hell and mrderrick,
i'm pondering on your words and why can't there be stars tonight.

just watch me play the guitar, that's when i love you,
no matter why <3

THE RUSH FOR THE TRAIN IN THE EARLY MORNINGS

so mundane you'd die too, nevermind me trying to make it colourful!i.am.doing.my.eom.and.my.eyes.are.falling.to.my.feet.
i.still.have.alkenes.to.rush.
i.hate.180707.190707.
bites!

feeling sleepy and bored and apparently my msging partner has stopped suddenly which results in boredom and i couldn't help it,
I HAD TO BLOG!
my brain needs juice and my juices needs me.

I DOUBT I'D STAY AWAKE DURING LESSONS TMR.
maybe only math lecture!

sometimes he drive me too deep into his eyes i find it hard to look away.
i dont even know him.

THE RAINBOW, THE SKY

admiring the greens and blues when you're feeling empty helps.
laughing when you're desperate helps.
i need to work s-u-p-e-r hard,
i can't disappoint myself

the leg's in a plain white bandage and she can't train for hockey.
SADLIFE

MISSION IMPOSSIBLE

without a comfortable user friendly phone!the one on the right's down with a spoiled button that i.have.absolutely.no.idea.how.it.died!

so i'm frantically trying my best to use the one on the left but apparently its VERY much sensitive and its working very well on giving people miss calls anyhow and sending messages to all the wrong people.

three cheers for the samsung phone people
yes hiphip hurray!

BUMMER

so maybe youth conference isn't a YES cos the first thing my parents think about is the MONEY to fork out to travel to thailand and the UNSAFE fact about the country now.
it's so bullshit and frustrating since i never thought of my parents as an obstacle.
LOOK at the experience and the things i'm going to bring back.
and its not like travelling with family,
i get to really enjoy since i have a all so serious and prim proper daddy.
i guess my youth wouldn't be as exciting and enriching anyway.
maybe mopping the floor and getting straight As interest them ALOT.

i have school tmr.
maybe it'll make my tiring and mundane life more exciting
(:
not the study part though.
i haven't understood a thing.

grumbles.

just as i was about to prepare myself for a tiring jog around my town,
the stupid rain came and made me lazy all over again.
it's enough that i wake in the afternoon everyday!
time for some exercise pig.

i SHOULD be complaining like mad now.
cos i have to collect my bursary money at concord pri next fri,
when my other two darlings are receiving at kranji.
i have alot to grumble about,
but the money awaiting me somehow shoo-ed the fact that i'd be going alone!
argh so much for receiving with feesh and steff...
pretty dongs. grr

Hear me when I said
When I said I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly

this should remind you of eragon's hot hot body.
teeehee(:
keith you better start working out huh?

i guess it isn't easy thinking about what's in for me.
the new people and environment is such a spoiler.
so while everybody's getting a feel of what its like,
i prefer to back out.

so everybody's for rich.
the guy's are for hot.
the girl's are for popularity.
somehow friendship runs through these.

maybe i'll find my pretty one there.
<3