farewell lover,
it's time we part.
the distance is hardly describable.
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weaki love my mummy and daddy.
there had been times where it truely sucks but still,
they're the gems
and the only route to where i am today.

LOVES <3

maybe it's time to tell each other we've grown old.
still, she ain't heavy,
she's my wonderful bitch.
love her!

i'm sorry i took so long to write this song
but i gave up.
you see one million words i can't describe
how it feels to know your love.
where did i go wrong?

but without you my life is imcomplete.
my days are absolutely gray.
and so i'll try
let your heart know for sure
that i have so much more to tell you
....every single day.

LOVES <3

i'm thinking of a train station,
a very old one.
something that will bring me to where i wanna be now.
the sophisticated black and white that i think it is of now.
i so wanna turn back time and do the things i wanna do then.
20nov, i would say i love you. (:
i won't put my hands up and surrender.
there'd be no white flag.

my very old crush came back on mind.
TOODAAS
TOODAAS

never can i think of the word pretty now.
my eyes are bagged with dark rings of fatigue.
i feel so caged up.
imagine the expectations from everyone?
and the one true fact that you never wanna fall behind your peers.
imagine looking at your marks and having millions asking you how you did?
proud or embarrass?
that i would have to speak for myself.

so i believe that wasting time chasing cars would be of better choice.
LOVES <3

sorry manda,
i can't accept you.
my heart's hidden under barter's bike silly.
you could burn it before i take you in.
like larris said,
heart's not big enough for you.
heartbroken as you can be,
blame it on the dark black thing that goes broom broom!

i'd wouldn't mind taking up the role for the very old crush.
LOVES <3

sunday started off really sweet (:
my supposingly girlfriend posed for a photo
he smiled widely like a gay!
guess he just misses keith. ALOT!
i was trying to take the people behind.
but ah it's ok since he's got pretty lashes to admire (:
it was raining very heavily as i drove.
oh i drove?
and yes i accumulated tons of vomit.
so i changed roles and went picture whoring with manda.
don't mind her..
she's just upset to have left neil behind.

so we found a secret passage way over changi.
my future husband to be better build one too!
i found a hot bf too...
he can't communicate well but i pardoned, for he's hot and black!
introducing,
Mr steven barter's bike(now my bf to be.)
i will find another hot one when i'm 21,
hopefully my parents don't kill me!
this little passage got me fascinated.
like beautiful, is all i can say!
and right down there is my little paradise.
for the little mr hot who lives down the lane.
and i threw out all hopes of finding a mr perfect.
manda thinks she should be a nun.(hur!)
so we spoke about the crushes and the fames.
the hopes and the desires.
never have i expected us to grow so fast!
we've promised to marry on the same day and go on double dates.
our other half shall be best friends and we wouldn't mind them bathing tgt.
we could knock down a wall,
and be more than neighbours.
suddenly,
suddenly,
i have more than an album to tell.

my heart's hidden under yours silly.
you're my safest place to hide.
LOVES <3

my bags are packed
i'm leaving for chalet today.
i don't wanna go,
don't wanna abandon my comfrot zone and the books i've piled.
i'll miss boob grabber and aunty..

p.s. take wkshts for me on monday (:

suddenly,
her sweetest testimonial for me make me soo wanna turn back time.
little angel,
you're like memories waiting to return.

so the little stars are telling me to work hard for everyone.
maybe i'm born to learn no matter how f-ed up it can be...
i thank the little angels around me.
love you for guiding me.
LOVES<3

It seems like yesterday when I said "I do"
And after all this time my heart still burns for you
If you don't know by now that you're my only one
Take a look inside me and watch my heartstrings come undone

I know I promised you forever
Is there no stronger word I can use
To reassure you when the storm is raging outside
You're my safest place to hide

Can you see me, here I am
I need you like I needed you then
When I feel like giving up
I climb inside your heart I still find
You're my safest place to hide

i wouldn't see the future,
i won't know what lies beneath.
but all i can do is pray and hope that everything stays (:
like little angels holding hands,
that'd be us in ten years to come.

i'm sick of doing meaningless pages of tys.
tired of listening to the same old music and sing-a-long.
if 16 had to be hard,
i don't wanna grow old.

all i can do is wish the guy beside was you.
your lips of an angel!
LOVES<3

I never meant the things I said
To make you cry
Can I say I'm sorry
It's hard to forget

And yes I regret
All these mistakes
I don't know why you're leaving Me
But I know you must have your reasons
There's tears in your eyes
I watch as you cry
But it's getting late

Was I invading in on your secrets
Was I too close for comfort
You're pushing me out
When I'm wanting in
What was I just about to discover
When I got too close for comfort
Driving you home
Guess I'll never know

Remember when we scratched our names into the sand
And told me you loved me
But now that I find
That you've changed your mind
I'm lost the words
And everything I feel for you
I wrote down on one piece of paper
The one in your hand
You won't understand
How much it hurts to let you go

so it's just all a controversy.
LOVES <3

words suddenly seemed worthless yesterday.
tears were equally helpless..
money couldn't buy, none could speak,
of the wonderful friendship we've all gained and lost.
the pretty faces and smart oufits got me thinking,
''damn! i'm getting old.''
the atmosphere was vivid for all.
the little ones around me were like escaping from the grasp of my hands.
i wouldn't let go, but it kept going.
it reminded me of the inevitable fact that one day we're all be going diff ways.

i made the ultimate decision..
something that could kill my pride.
went up to pearly and asked for a photo.
it's been two years and we're all hardly hi byes.
doing everything with her yesterday was like opening an old chapter.
the feeling inside was eccentric.
standing with her and hearing her call my name..
and if things could be turned,
everything would be different definitely.

she hasn't changed a tiny little bit.
still those sweet candid poses and same old smile.
the feeling's still the same,
except for the fact that there were scars as barriars.
still, i love her for the fact that she entered my life,
and made me feel foolish for being an ass.
it made me so wanna cry but i guess i was being a bitch,
i couldn't even show my true feelings
feesh couldn't get a hold and gave a wide hug.
she made me wanna break down like a silly child.
i guess i have to thank GOD for her,
for making me realise all that i've taken granted for.
to my darling girlfriend!
he's been an ass of a friend.
one of the closest pal that i could talk rubbish with,
and have tolerated all the stupid things i've done!
he listens and makes stupid remarks,
but i thank him for being a pal together with jude chan.
to my fabulous sitting partner,
for tolerating once again my craziness,
and for being cranky at the time of the month.
to my shortcake,
for being an asshole of a sitting partner.
the one girl who listens to me whine and scream
and laughs at my jokes. (when no one does)
she tells me the best rumours and gossips.
hah darling girl,
drey loves you so!
these are the angels in my life. (with daz but i've yet to upload)
without these bitches,
i wouldn't know where i would be.
don't lose me after o's cos i'd grab you guys really tightly.
love,
really love.
jane is the lovely teacher who refuses to teach relative velocity for add math.
but we still love her and her craziness.
(:
mummy,
we all love you!
and i couldn't leave out my darling manda panda could i?
and not forgetting the little wonderful church people in my life.
i'm looking forward to date on 20th november.
they say we'll all go diff ways,
but i place a sincere bet,
there'd be more space than never for more chapters.
goodbye, tough it hurts,
seems to be the last resort.
nevertheless,
memories!

LOVES<3

so yesterday was a whirlwind of fun and everything.
authentic german beer and sausages brought me grinning non-stop.
pity manda cos she's deemed underage by parents and aunties and uncles,
she could only savour sips while i gulp (:
but DECEMBER manda,
there'd be no adults around,
to limit the zang.
we got a little high there after,
and picture whore the night.
thick haze was running through the basement at a sweet midnight.
terrible. very terrible.
nobody drives home when they drink.
they leave their darlings cars and opt for taxis.
those driver must be grinning at the large midnight charges they're having and taken.
and only if every other day was as colourful as these.
i can't wait for o's to be over,
and sing tralala with manda.
20th Nov!
town with girls
and celebrate the almighty Larris's birthday!
it's silly i still keep it displayed.
it was given on my birthday in '04 by pearly and sharon.
we're supposed arch enemies now.
guess we'r leading different lives, different people.
but i'm still smiling cos i've got boob grabbers and aunty as friend. (:
the last supper portrait lies prettily in my dining area.
i get to savour the awesome lighting every time i eat.
it's a pretty thing i've got home (:
so prob that's why my mummy doesn't allow me to study stay at feesh's gram's house.
as if,
it's not that easy getting to you darling.
LOVES <3>

exactly three weeks till my all so big o's.
i'd better stop my dreams of utopia.
join the rest in mugging like hell,
trying to understand relative velocity.
i could cry from all that stress but thank GOD,
everyone else is going through the same.
stronger!
(: i will!

was he trying to serenade me?
LOVES <3

-audrey jasintha claire

so that's how the silly cake looks like (:
i'm certainly proud. (it looks charred!)

happy birthday DESMOND NG, he who makes my day!
happy birthday SHEILA, the tralala
happy birthday MUMMY LOVE you're always my LOVE!
happy birthday DESMOND BISWAS, my supposingly ex-hubby!
happy birthday SEAN! my listening ear and damn KAY-POH one please.
(happy birthday to my october babies who love me so and i love you so!)

so i'm missing jared's gig today!
aww cos darling manda wanna be a true friend and like give moral support.
ok i'll give my support too!
GO MANDA'S FRIEND!

so friday's changed to mugging day.
BUT TMR!
aha i'll never say no to german sausages and booze please.
not forgetting the company that makes me go AHA!

i thought i ruined the lovely night,
with the thoughts of another guy.
LOVES <3

this may be a last post till after o's.
and so i...

and so blogger's being a bitch.
i'm fuming but boston's making me smile (:

yeah right!

believe it or not?
a phone without camera is a freaking $148.
the PSI hours ago was a shocking 140.
and if it even reaches 300 that'd be no school.
but damn i don't wanna die at sixteen.
don't those indonesians know what they're doing?
you can even see the heavy haze through a clear camera.
man kill me please.

i hope these don't make you think chickens.
you've gonna appreciate lantern festival people!
you see lights everywhere.
and for once i thought there were things much prettier than me.
maybe i meant that as a compliment no? lol
that's definitely more than just shadows

and if it was as easy as GREEN MAN,
i would have walked through you mr hot.
i wasted time chasing cars.
any faster, you wouldn't know they're vehicles.

so i'm getting confirmed.
pretty excited but studies first lady.
i've yet to make an appointment and i'm kindda uptight.
like yeah nervous.

i won't put my hands up and surrender
there'll be no red flag above my door.
so pardon the grumpiness and breakouts.

so as i mug
i bet my eyes would have dogged heavy bags of fatigue

audrey's song.
LOVES <3>

today was a total big slack
montage was awesome (:
went for slizzling hot lunch date with girlfriends and gay after school
pastamania was large fat input.

on the train there i felt large heat that could kill
a horrifying view of a factory engulfed in large flames
the F word came from stef.
''what if there's people inside?''
hah that girl!
could have captured the flames but missed it
took it on return trip instead.
so i received an unexpected msg from cami.
omg i should have gone for ordination.
damn! i could have seen my wonderful WALK buddies.
awww he's making me goo but it's too late..
ordination mass will be filled with large.
that's a silly smile for people who loves me. i couldn't draw it off if i was happy (: man people do love me! roars.

i couldn't stand the itch of that skinny one.
she copies and copies.
i mean she could have her own originality.
my god.
maybe love, <3, rah and all are trademarks of other people.
don't call that girl a bitch when you're stepping her.
i bet you skinny ass has got originality.


i think he's leaving for boston.
he's leaving me for good.
LOVES <3>